"Do I turn left, when nothing is right? or do I turn right, when there's nothing left?" on Thursday



As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.

You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.

You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.

Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

credit to the author


“Life is full of choices, if you have the guts to go for it.

That's why I get immediately bored with anyone's complaining about how boring their life is, or how bad their town is.

Fucking leave and go somewhere else. Or don't.”

-Henry Rollins-


things are not easy as 1, 2, 3.

when we say we letting things go, are we truly lets things go ?

we miss somebody, why do we miss them ?
what make we feel that ?

and sometimes...
there always too much question that need to be answer

do we really have the answer for everything?


I Just Miss You

i wish you are here right now.
so i can tell you what had happened to me, how a rough life i been through.
sometimes i just feel like o wanna cry out loud but i can't.

i don't wanna complain bout, life is wonderful.
i always told people that.
just there is time that i don't feel so good.

you know what...
i miss you a lot...
as a friend, as a sister, as a person who always listen when i feel bad.

i wish you are here...
but i know it won't happen.
its almost 3 month since you gone but i still thinking of you.

dear nadia...
i just want you to know that i always keep you close to my heart...

September 11 2009
~i just miss you~




tak semestinya bersama setiap hari


tidak juga mestinya berbual sepanjang masa


selagi ia-nya terpahat dihati



terus untuk

kekal abadi

untuk selamanya

:. originally i got the hard copy from KMZ and i don't really know who wrote this. so the credit goes to you KMZ. and i'm sorry cos i do some editing without notifying you ;p



a lot of touch

more and more of senses

wonderful things in life

the education

more to lost
unknown and unidentified...

and more lost...
and more to lost.


Penuh Rasa Tapi

gembira tapi dengan kesedihan

senyum tapi penuh dengan air mata

ketawa tapi pedih yang terasa

bersuara tapi penuh sunyi

riang tapi sedih yang datang


A Bottle

A Bottle
last year i was laughing
last month i was chilling
last week i was having fun
last night i still can smile...

today i can't even think of happiness
tonight i can't even see my face on the mirror anymore

tomorrow i hope i know what should i do

the day after tomorrow
i hope there still ways to end this
to end its in a good way...

if there is an angles
it is the time to they to be here

if there is devils
its time for you to go away

i believe in Him
i wish He listening to my inside
so He will lead me to do what suppose to be done

Today at 11:00pm



i wish i have someone who know me.

i wish i have someone who care bout me.

i wish i have someone who always be there for me.

i wish i have love one. i wish i have someone.

but that is only what i wish.

in reality there is none that i wish i have.


Kehidupan Adalah Kehidupan

kehidupan adalah kehidupan
kehidupan itu tidak pernah adil
kerna ia adalah kehidupan

kita hidup dalam satu kehidupan
kita pilih apa yang kita mau dalam kehidupan
pilihan hidup dalam kehidupan terletak pada diri

jangan asyik mengadu dengan kehidupan
kerna ia apa yang di pilih, apa yang kita tentu kan

jangan terlampau asyik menikmati kehidupan
kerna belum pasti keindahan kehidupan itu akan kekal untuk selama nya

kehidupan hidup dalam kehidupan
ia tidak pernah lupa akan kehidupan nya
cuma yang hidup dalam kehidupan ini sering leka


Ini Sign Board Saya

kalau kehidupan itu satu pilihan

ianya perlu di pelbagaikan lagi pilihan nya

kalau pilihan itu perlu di pilih

mahu di pilih bukan hanya satu sahja pilihan nya

kalau perlu, mau aja hari-hari tanpa perlu berfikir

kalau perlu, nak aja tiap detik tanpa masalah

kalau perlu, ingin aja punya masa penuh keriangan

dunia adalah transisi bagi semua makhluk

kehidupan adalah satu marathon tanpa tau di mana penamat nya

kita adalah siapa yang kita pilih

tanpa perlu ada penyesalan, tanpa perlu ada alasan



Putih, biru, hitam, kelabu
Tetap di sana
Sentiasa berarak

Berlari ke sana
Berlari ke mari
Laju dan perlahan
Tetap terus bersama

Hujan, ribut, angin dan panas
Itu lumrah nya alam
Mereka terus tetap bersama
Tanpa satu rasa putus dan asa

Mereka adalah nafas ku
Mereka adalah mimpi ku
Mereka adalah impian ku
Mereka adalah keluarga ku

Mereka adalah alasan
Alasan untuk aku
Untuk lebih berdiri
Dan terus berdiri disin



for a good reason

why seldom people never give up?

I'm lazy,

I'm not learning my lessons,

so i keep doing the same mistakes


and again

and again...

i don't wanna wish

i don't want to hope

there is no other way to escape

the one and only way is facing the reality

i just wanna finish this final chapter

finish the episode

then I'll finish this story

so its will be the end


Satu Hari

Hari ini
Hari ini aku merangkak

Hari ini
Hati ini aku mula bertatih

Hari ini
Hari ini juga aku mula berjalan

Hari ini
Dan hari ini aku juga mulai berlari

Hari ini
Semua nya bermula hari ini

Hari ini
Tiada siapa yang tahu akhir nya

Hari ini
Hanya hari ini...



things happen for a reason,

to make people a better person.



Hati !!!

jangan biar

diri kamu ada hati !!!



ada hati

kamu yang mati !!!


at first i just like you
then i just felt in love with you
after that i still in love with
in the end i love you
therefore i always trust you

meaning that i love you so much with all my heart

then things happen
we breaking up

but still

i like you
im in love with you
i trust you
so i still love you



the last time
was a year ago
its come back
its going to start back
right now...

life hard
so I'll be harder...

so what ?
like there people care
like people know...

i just don't give it a damm
like you should care
so now i know what life is all about

asyraffaiz the angin
27 Feb 09


If Only If

if life is so easy,

i won't be suffering,

if life is so good,

i ain't gonna have to through this,

if i can choose another life

i won't choose to live anymore...

asyraf faiz matahari
26 Feb 09


Lewis Moody

I'm not in the mood
I'm not in the mood of talking
I'm not in the mood of thinking
I'm not in the mood of seeing
I'm not in the mood of walking
I'm not in the mood of arguing
I'm not in the mood of eating
I'm not in the mood of everything


a pack of cigar is just enough for now
a good nice sleep is just gonna be better
a cup of caffeine would make the day easier


a day at home is a must for now
ignore me if you don't like me
as simple as that for now on
cos that is life


life is not only about you
life is not only about what you want
if that what you want
that is your life
its not mine
i just choose not to give a damm bout it